Funny how things look different from another person’s perspective. At any given time, I feel like a mess. I have a million things constantly going through my mind. Some things are minor, like who is going to take out the trash. And some are major: what am I doing with my life; I put my foot in my mouth (again); why didn’t I do A instead of B and then everything would have been perfect; what am I going to do in the next 10 years to make my mark in this world; and are my kids going to be okay?? I usually have no answers, but I keep plodding ahead putting one foot in front of the other and hoping it will all come together. At least the trash always gets taken out. And yet, I think from the outside, I look relatively put together. I was thinking about this today after someone complimented me and my first reaction was to dismiss the kind words, and secondly to beat myself up and say it wasn’t anything special. Then it reminded me of something I heard while back “The reason we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind-the-scenes with everyone else’s highlight reel.” I find it is so true for me, and perhaps for others too: judging ourselves too harshly and failing to give ourselves credit where due. It seems so easy to be generous with others and look at their positives, and so easy to focus on our own negatives. Anyway – just a thought for today if you find yourself turning down a compliment or looking harshly at one of your bloopers – just remember – everyone else is looking at your highlight reel – and you should too!
I wouldn’t saying I am avoiding big decisions, but I will say I am practicing a little meditative procrastination. The next few months will bring many big changes – and it is stressing me out a little bit. My husband has an assignment to leave Paris, one son is graduating from high school in June, and the younger son wants to remain in Paris to finish out his high school years. I want someone to tell me what to do and how it will turn out six months from now. If anyone has a crystal ball, let me know. I will pay top dollar. So, what to do instead? Play with food. Baking provided a welcome distraction from the big questions. Focusing on a more tangible and yummy task didn’t lead to a grand ‘aha’ moment but it did give my mind a short break from the chatter. Not to mention, having warm apple cake and a cup of coffee isn’t a bad way to mull over life’s big issues.
Fashion is a parade and this couldn’t be more evident than Paris Fashion Week. This weekend, I have been hanging out on the the fringes of Paris Fashion Week, taking pictures of and participating in the circus of people posing, strutting, begging for attention. I really love the street fashion, the energy, and the camaraderie of those out there enjoying fashion during these sunny March days. Were people begging for attention? Yes. Were some of the outfits unwearable? Yes, at least for me. But I soaked up all the pageantry. And, I may have used up my fifteen minutes of fame…dragging along my little Brando, who quickly became a subject of photographs himself. The star moment was when a designer Natasha Zinko (http://www.natashazinko.com/) (top collage, right) asked if she could pose with B. So fun! I can see why the fashionistas dress up – the attention can be a bit intoxicating. The girl in the cape (bottom collage bottom left) is taking a picture of B as I take a picture of her. Here is a small collection of things that caught my eye over the weekend. More to follow as I sift through and take more photographs over the coming week!